Well, today is my last full day with my kids. *Insert Shocked Face Here* A few weeks ago I was talking to my ex about the kids. The oldest is having such a hard time in school and the baby just wants attention. With my time already taken by work and school and then homework and maintaining the house I just never had time to give to my kids even when I made time. I asked him if he wanted to take the kids until I graduate from school and get a good job. Surprisingly he was super happy about it. He is coming tomorrow to pick up the girls and the next day he will be packing all of their stuff and leaving. I'm so heartbroken about this. I am trying not to let my emotions and pride get in the way of the best thing for my kids. They are going to be so much happier with him. He can give them all the attention they want between their dad, their brother, their dad's live in girlfriend, their cousins and god-mother, and the huge support system he has over there. He has a part time job and can pick them up from school, drop them off at school, do homework with them, feed them homecooked meals (instead of chicken nuggets and hotdogs everynight), and take care of them better. I have spent so much time crying and trying to remember why I'm doing this. It's so painful to know that this is my last full day with them. I wont get to spend another night with them for a while. I miss them already!!
I don't know if it was to compensate for losing the girls, but I got two cats. Big mistake. They are even more trouble than the kids! Hopefully they will keep me company when I need someone to cuddle with me.
The roommates did move out and when they left they took about $500 worth of my stuff with them. They left my house a disaster and didn't clean up anything. They didn't even vaccuum their room. I spent about 24 hours cleaning my house to make up for the mess they left. Every day I find more and more stuff that they took from me. I want to get mad but I just don't have the energy to bother. It's more trouble to try and get it back and I'd rather just replace it anyway.
Two days ago my house was taken off the market. No, I didn't sell it, the contract was finished. My realtor was horrible but luckily a realtor called me the next day asking if he could put my house on the market and try and sell it. I agreed. So here goes my house back on the market, hopefully this time it sells. With this new guy I should get a lot more views. Thank goodness, I need to get out of the house asap.
This would be about the time I mention the current dating situation. It's so messed up right now that I just don't want to get into it. When things become a little easier to deal with I'll elaborate. Until then, it's just more drama to add to my pile.
Let's see what the next few weeks bring.
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