Guess who is back? My babies! My ex husband is off to Kuwait in a few days and the girls are living with me. I finally have my girls back, for good. It's not going to be easy juggling two jobs, school, and my beautiful kids, but I will do whatever it takes to make sure they stay with me. My oldest starts school in less than a week, first grade! Funny enough, that's the same day I start school at the university. This is my not my last semester as I had hoped, but my second to last semester. I will graduate in May. Nine long months to go and then it will be over. It's sort of like being pregnant. I have nine months left, with every month getting more difficult to get through until the end when it all comes to fruition and I get my buddle of joy, my diploma! Fantastic analogy.
So let's start with a recap. I am still single, now that the kids are here I wont be dating much either. So the dating situation is non existant but I really don't mind. In fact, I think I prefer it this way. I have more time to devote to my kids and to myself. I went on a few dates recently, but I don't think there are many options here for me in respect to men. Due to my location, there are only two types of men available, soldiers and hispanics. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against either, however in respect to my dating options, I don't find either group a good fit. I've already done the soldier thing. I'm done with soldiers, in general they are not emotionally available or mentally competent to date me. With hispanics, the vast cultural differences between myself and them would cause too much friction in a relationship. At this point in my life I prefer to have a companion/partner that is similar to me in upbringing and values. That usually would come from someone with my racial background, and someone who was raised in the same part of the country as me. Someone who was raised like me. So with limited options for men here, I have very little desire to settle for second rate men. I will just bid my time and wait until I am ready to relocate. I hope when I graduate and move that I will relocate to a place where more men will meet my criteria. Getting into a serious relationship right now is not a good idea anyway knowing that I wont be here for long. We will see how things go, but I'm fairly sure that dating isn't an option for me.
School starts on Monday for me and my daughter. I'm excited and anxious. Excited because I always loved the first day of school and it's the day our routine will start. Anxious because it's gonna be my daughter's first day and I hope it goes well. It will be rough the first couple of weeks setting up the routine and getting comfortable and my kids don't do well with change. It's sad that they have been through so much change in such a short time, it can't be healthy. However, my main goal is to get them both involved in outside activities. I'm putting the older one in cheerleading. ASAP. She needs a positive outlet.
I would love to write more but I just don't have enough time right now. I'll write again updates soon.
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