Today went so much better than I anticipated. I had a few tears, but I kept myself busy and stayed out of trouble. I miss him. I doubt it will last much longer. I realize how toxic he was for me and I'm so much better off without him. He brought out this crazy person inside of me and I'm really not that psychotic. I'm thankful for the experience, however, because it helped me to realize what I need right now. I need to be single. I need to stay single. They say that the right guy comes along when you aren't looking. Hopefully he wont come along any time soon because I REFUSE to date. I'm going to be celebate for a while so I can figure things out. FYI, staying celibate is very difficult for me but I can't let my sexual desires hinder my self assessment.
So, I had a good day. It's the first big step towards a new me. It only took me six months to figure it out!
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