So yesterday was a big set back for me. Instead of doing the right thing by finishing my homework and cleaning up the house, I called the ex-boyfriend. He was working last night and I called him to see if he was coming over for anything because I wanted to be out of the house if he was coming. He said he wasn't and then I asked the stupidest question, "Do you need anything?" Of course he said yes and I ended up bringing him my phone charger, dinner, some energy drinks to keep him going, and some cash. I stayed there for about two hours last night talking to him and his co-worker. Of course I ended up making a fool of myself and him by talking about our problems. I feel bad looking back on it.
After I went to take him that stuff I went to a bachelorette party with my friend T. She wanted me to go earlier but I was too busy bugging the ex to go. However, I got there right when the stripper came out..... This was the first time I had ever seen a male stripper before. Oh wow I got so embarrassed. He went around the room doing a few dances for each of the girls and I nearly orgasmed when he danced for me! It was awesome. After I left I texted the ex. That didn't go well so when I got home I sent him one last text. It said something to the effect of, "I realize that I have been stupid to chase after someone who doesn't want me anymore. This will be my last text to you. I deleted your number and will not contact you again. I refuse to put myself through this emotional disaster." That was about 14 hours ago. I haven't contacted him and I haven't heard a word from him yet. This is a big break through for me. Hopefully I can maintain. Since I don't have his number anymore, I'm pretty sure it will be easier for me to stay away!
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