Confused

I'm confused.

I find that I am not seizing the day.  Carpe Diem is lost on me.  I think the big problem for me is that I don't have a focus.  I don't have a goal.  I spend my day trying to juggle what life I want to live.  Do I want to cut corners and have fun while I can?  Or do I want to do my best at work and school and give my full attention to it?

It's either dedicate myself to school and work, or enjoy life and relax.  It's scary, because part of me thinks I need a break from everything but the rational part of me realizes I need to make money to support my lifestyle.  I'm wondering if I lose my job, and I cut my expenses, and I focus on just school, will I be happier?  It's something to think about for sure.

School comes first, then work, then play.  Shouldn't it be the other way?  Shouldn't play come first?  I don't know.  I'm confused.  I need a sign.  Which way do I go?