As much as I hate to be in a financial crisis, I appreciate my happiness more. On Friday I had a really nasty encounter at work with my boss and I'm pretty sure I'm about to be fired. However, I am getting conflicting pieces of advice from those who care about me. Some people say I should quit before I get fired, others say I should appologize to my boss and try to keep my crappy job, others say I should just go in to work and pretend it never happened. I go back to work tomorrow so I'm anxious to see what I will decide to do. However, I am now actively searching for a new job.
Ok, so this weekend was a revelation to me. I love how when I get to a huge impacting event it comes in threes. My post the other day about cutting the fat was very reflective of me. This weekend something similar happened. I was told not by one person, but three, (one in a blog response!!) that I need to do what is best for ME and no one else. It's true, I've been living for everyone else but me. It's very strange realizing that I am not really in control of my life despite the fact that I need to be. I refuse to let myself get swept away again. Multiple times this weekend people have told me that I need to think for myself and do what makes ME happy. The only problem - I have no idea what will make me happy. I'm trying to reflect on my current situation and see where I want to be in five years. However, it's not that easy. I can picture what I want to be doing, but I have no idea how to get there!!!! I would love to work at NASA designing missile systems in a team of engineers and building rockets. How do I do it? What can I do now to ensure I get there? Step one- don't get fired. Ok, so that was easy. Step two - graduate. Ok, not so easy but I'm working on it. Step three - get experience with rockets. That's the key! I need experience building rockets! Ok, but how do I get that? Internships? Graduate research?? Time for me to start figuring out where I can get that kind of experience. Step four - get letters of recommendation. Fairly easy, I need to approach a few professors for that but I'm sure I can pull it off. Step five - build up a good resume. That's gonna take time and effort on my part that I will have to do once I have a break from school. Step six- once the first five steps are complete, apply to NASA. I need to get a response from them somehow as to what I need to do better in order to get a position.
Time for class, will post again later.
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