After starting my new job on Friday night, I've gotten very little sleep. I don't work tonight, thank goodness, but I am at my other job right now pulling a six hour shift. Ironicly, I enjoy working at a strip club so much more than I like working at my day time job. I can't stand my daytime job. It's boring, the boss is an ass, and I have no appreciation for what I do. What I love about the strip club job is that I get to interact with people all night. I'm not stuck in a cubicle isolated from the rest of the world. I can be myself at my other job. I spent Friday night at work drinking and dancing to good music, talking to different people all night, and enjoying myself. I loved it. I'm thankful that I don't have to go to school for two more weeks so I can try to adjust to not sleeping at night. I did the math (go figure) today about when I would have time to sleep and when I would have time to study. Here is my schedule:
Monday: School from 9-1130 Work from 12-5 AT&T Sleep and study from 6pm-
Tuesday: School from 9-1130 Work from 12-5 AT&T Sleep and study 6-8 Work 9-4am club
Wednesday: repeat Tuesday
Thursday: School from 9-1130 Work from 12-5 AT&T Work 8-4am club
Friday: School from 9-1130 Sleep and study 12-6 Work 8-5am club
Saturday: Sleep and study 6am-6pm Work 8-5am club
Sunday: Sleep and study 6am-
So pretty much in summary, no sleep on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday or Friday. I can catch up on Saturday morning, Sunday, and Monday night. How is this going to work? No idea. The above schedule is only good for one month then it changes slightly but not significantly enough to give me more time to sleep. The only difference is that I will work at AT&T 7am-11am M-F and School 11-3pm M-F and the club schedule will stay the same. So if anything, I will probably get less sleep. However, that second schedule will only be for a month.
In the fall (ie August) I will have to quit one of my two jobs. There is no way I can maintain a full time job, a part time job, and a full time school schedule at the same time and still manage to get good grades. One job will have to go, not sure which one yet. Honestly, it will probably be AT&T because of my school schedule. It will be difficult for me to juggle work and school during the day.
Also, I have managed to somehow gain ten pounds. I'm not thrilled at all. I don't know how I did it. Well, it's time to fix that. Starting in two days I go on a special diet. I get paid from the strip club tomorrow and I'll use the cash to buy healthy food. I'm going to have to make the boyfriend cook since I will not have enough time to cook most days, let alone sleep! I will make healthy snacks and keep myself from indulging in junk food. Luckily, I have two days to pig out first!! By the end of these two days I'll be so sick of junk food that going on the diet will be easy.
I talked to the ex today. He plans on moving back to town. I think it's great. The kids will be here and they will get to have both parents in the same city. He wants to take the house, which is great because I wont have to pay the outrageous mortgage on that thing anymore. If he does move back, I plan on getting a job nearby after graduation and going to grad school for Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering. Maybe I can even get my new job to pay for grad school. You never know! I'm getting a head of myself though. He only had the idea and wanted to run it by me. I have no problem with it and I really hope that he moves back. It will make my life so much easier! I miss my kids so much and I know I wont have the time or ability to take care of them if there were here, but at least I would get to see them. Once I graduate in 201 days (yes, I counted), I wouldn't want to just take the kids from him and hurt all of them. I swear I think my ex would die if I just took them away from him. He is a great guy, a terrible husband, but a really great dad. He loves the kids more than I could ever ask, probably more than I do. I don't want to hurt him by just taking them and leaving. I don't want to confuse the girls either. It's really sad to think how difficult this will be. When my parents got divorced I didn't really care if I ever saw my dad again. To this day, if my dad died I wouldn't even go to his funeral. My kids have such an awesome relationship with their dad, one that I've never had. I can't imagine what it would be like for them to miss him.
You're very lucky! I have always said that if my ex was a good father, I would accept things the way they are and understand that they are better with him, but truthfully there is NO comparison between him and Steve. Steve is ten times the father figure. He taught my sons how to play baseball, he took off of work to go to school functions, he did all the things my ex STILL doesn't do even though the kids are at his house. It makes me sad that when they get older, they are gonna hate their father like I hate mine. The way I see it, your girls are at a big advantage because they won't have all these "daddy issues" where they'll let a man treat them poorly to compensate for not having a reliable male influence in their lives. They'll be strong women who won't take anyone's shit. That's gotta be a good feeling.
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