It is finals week here for us college students. I took two finals today and I have one more tomorrow. My back and neck are killing me from crouching over books and stressing out over the tests. Last night I was up until 3 in the morning but not studying, I just couldn't sleep. I had gotten coffee to keep me awake to study but I couldn't focus on math so I went to bed but I got right back up. So now, it's 7pm and I already took two sleeping pills and bayer back and body to try and relax. Tomorrow's final doesn't do much more than guarantee I get my C so I'm not stressing over it. However, my body is fighting the stress and anxiety. Thank goodness for Zoloft or I might not be getting through this so well.
Speaking of Zoloft, I learned a tough lesson last night. My sex drive dissappeared. I went from being able to cum on command to struggling to stay turned on. I tried to have sex with my boyfriend last night but I just couldn't get into it. I have no desire for sex now, I just want to cuddle, nothing more. Now that the sex is not part of the relationship, I wonder how it will evolve from here. However, since this is a temporary relationship, I'm not too worried. I will be moving in 7 months to my new job (wherever it may be!) and he will have to decide if he wants to come with me or not, cause i'm not going to put my life on hold for him.
Speaking of my life, I'm clueless what to do with it. I'm debating about what I want to do and how I want to pursue the rest of my education. Do I want to bust my butt and graduate in December or take it easy and struggle financially until next May? How will relocating around the holidays affect everything?
My back is killing me. I'll post more later.
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